Tied

God, I've not been here in a while,
Not opened my soul,
Or mouth!
I find it difficult to look at all this pain,
The sadness,
And unbearable nothingness.
I wanna write something good,
Something great,
Something alive,
Something worth giving a shit about.
But I can't,
Its just the same old me,
Same old life,
Same old scene.
Frustratingly ordinary,
Lacking in feeling,
And life.
I'm working on it,
Not giving up,
Refusing to be sucked into the darkness.
But at times it seems pointless,
Futile even,
Am I in this on my own?
I hope not.....