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How I ache,
There's a question that is gnawing at my soul,
I know the answer,
It's all too clear to me now,
Now.
Sorry, I hear myself say in the dark,
Sorry I had to come here,
To look about,
Check the scenery,
See if these walls had changed.
They have indeed,
But is it enough,
We will see,
Only time will tell I guess.
For now I am here, in this kind of nothingness,
A no-mans land of lonely thoughts,
And idle dreams.
I breathe,
But these lungs are empty,
I love,
But this heart doesn't beat in time,
I talk,
But the words are empty, soulless and lost,
I dream.
And this spirit is lifted, if only in moments.
My life albeit briefly returns to technicolour,
Wild chasms of colour filled pictures,
Dance within my grasp,
As I long for the bluest skies to embrace this spirit,
And allow her to fly once more,
Soon,
Very soon.

xx

The light.....

The lights were bright once,
So bright i was blinded,
For just an instant it seems,
But one flash,
One blink of an eye,
And it was gone,
All gone.

There was warmth once,
So much heat, it enveloped me,
Crept inside me,
Scorching the claret that courses through me,
But a harsh word,
And it was gone,
All gone.

There was desire once,
An all consuming lust,
Beyond subduing,
Inviting and adoring,
But with a curious action,
It was all gone,
All gone.

There once was a hand,
A love that held me,
Arms that encompassed my soul,
Words that cherished me,
But with anger and stupidity,
It was all gone,
All gone.

There was a light,
A beautiful beacon, leading me home,
Imploring for recognition,
And fulfilment,
Just there,
Just you,
Then you were gone,
All gone.