You want me to hold you,
Look at you with Love?
You feel like there is a distance between us?
Well hell-fucking-yeah there is...
Its called the God-damn brick wall you put up to stop yourself feeling anything!
Trouble is,
Shutting out all that hurt,
That pain,
The agony of loss,
Just severs all the good stuff too!
If your not open to all that raw pain,
Your not open to any other kind of emotion,
In short your feelings are cut dead.
You Love,
But there is no warmth.
Your arms hold me,
But there is no passion in your touch.
You speak to me,
Not with me,
You listen,
But you hear fuck all!
Its okay,
I get it, I really do.
But for me to deal with that,
I have to hide too,
Seal those old wounds,
Shut off the lights and crawl back into the dark,
For its only here,
Alone.
That the searing pain of loneliness,
Of your indifference,
Can't touch me,
Envelope and,
Consume me.
You put me here,
Don't fucking complain when you can no longer reach me!!
