I don't like you!

There,
I've said it....out loud!
How can you even begin to love someone you struggle to like?
I try,
Fuck do I try.
But you just leave me speechless with your actions,
Well in-actions...
The one day you have your little girl overnight,
The one time its just you and her,
You finish work early...what do you do?
Pick her up early?
Fetch her from Nursery?
Call and ask if its ok to change the arranged time?
Nah....course you don't.
Selfish prick that you are...
You go out,
You use the time for yourself,
For your well being,
For your state of mind ....
I hope your conscience is clear my friend..
Oh wait, we're not even friends are we..
Fuck buddies maybe..
Well not even that anymore,
I can't give myself to someone who doesn't see me..
YOU JUST DON'T FUCKIN SEE ME!!!
Arsehole...
FUCK YOU!

Love me....

...its all I ask.
It's all I ever asked for...
It's all I ever really need,
To breathe,
To get by,
To exist.
Why do you find it so fuckin difficult?
There are endless ways possible,
To show someone...
You Love them.
Not big extravagant gestures,
'The little things'
I said I didn't feel loved, appreciated or even noticed!
You say the old line," But I do love you,
I'll try harder,
I know I need to show you, I know that's what you need..."
And then you say something that throws me,
A complete curve ball???
I tell you "I don't think you can show love, to anyone, not just me..."
You say,
"Maybe that's just how I am?????"
Like that's ok?
Like I have to live with that?
That its ok to leave someone,
Not just anyone,
The person you claim to love,
Without fuckin air!!!
Cos that's what it feels like,
You clip my wings,
Suffocate my soul,
And drench my spirit with your ...
Lack of....

Over and out
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